forever till forever meets no end

Saturday, May 12, 2007 @6:53 PM

i guess ora was better then expected. we had quite a good turn out. the 1st and 3rd performances were damn screwed on my part. on the 1st one during cry, i forgot about the free hand part and just jumped off. then i saw wen jun and limjie standing there cause they were looking at me cause they didn't know how to do >.< then on the 3rd performance during come one over, me and wen jun crashed and fell to the ground laughing during the cartwheel. stupid right?

then we dragged ourselves from training. and almost fell asleep. i was soo tired i couldn't do a single routine. damn it. its was so stupid and i know i was damn slack and didn't do properly at all. like for the ball routine lao shi restarted the music like 5-7 times? wth lah. i suck so bad.

i'm so freaking pissed at myself for not being able to do anything. then lao shi just had to talk/whisper something to me while i was packing my stuff which was meant only for me to hear and i almost cried. :( its not like i don't want to train properly ok?!

damn myself like lao shi said i can go get last at nationals this year. freaking last place. thats how bad i'm doing at the moment.

where are you?